i'm back..after a few days without internet due to my modem which broke down. sad..anyway, apologies.
yeah! i got more photos from my TW friends. I miss them and Tomoko. I'm counting down to meet up with Tomoko...can't wait. I do miss Tomoko. Miss the time we spent together. I do hope i can go over to see Sakura with you.
recently had been lost again. I'm unhappy, upset again.
I can't come out with any ideas for my research topic. lost interest. It is worse when my sup emailed me asking me to write another report for the big shots. Sigh.."no progress" which of cos i cant say to the big shots.sad.
I can't find what I can do or be. Like photography , and travel,but...
I'm not even sure if i can be a researcher or lecturer in the future. No teaching experience...research skill getting rusty.
I'm not even sure if i'll stay in BNE. I'm not even sure if i'll be in Aus. I'm not even sure if i'll be back in SIN also. If i go somewhere else, i'm not even sure what i can do there, and how i can survive there too. Lost..upset.
The saddness got even worse when i met up with my frens who are mostly or all are working and making big bux while i'm still a student.Sigh..all think i'm lucky. Maybe. I don't know how to describe the hidden sorrow to the others as almost all look at the surface of it only.
I suppose is time to move to somewhere new again. I need new things, else its so dead. This is the only thing i'm sure of. Sigh..i can only day dream.Crap. plus my memory getting worse..sigh.
Health?hmm... need more check up i suppose but its the festive seasons. I can't get any appointment. Lazy also..eh. I think is more of doc phobia.Hhehe..will see the doc. soon.
yeah! i got more photos from my TW friends. I miss them and Tomoko. I'm counting down to meet up with Tomoko...can't wait. I do miss Tomoko. Miss the time we spent together. I do hope i can go over to see Sakura with you.
recently had been lost again. I'm unhappy, upset again.
I can't come out with any ideas for my research topic. lost interest. It is worse when my sup emailed me asking me to write another report for the big shots. Sigh.."no progress" which of cos i cant say to the big shots.sad.
I can't find what I can do or be. Like photography , and travel,but...
I'm not even sure if i can be a researcher or lecturer in the future. No teaching experience...research skill getting rusty.
I'm not even sure if i'll stay in BNE. I'm not even sure if i'll be in Aus. I'm not even sure if i'll be back in SIN also. If i go somewhere else, i'm not even sure what i can do there, and how i can survive there too. Lost..upset.
The saddness got even worse when i met up with my frens who are mostly or all are working and making big bux while i'm still a student.Sigh..all think i'm lucky. Maybe. I don't know how to describe the hidden sorrow to the others as almost all look at the surface of it only.
I suppose is time to move to somewhere new again. I need new things, else its so dead. This is the only thing i'm sure of. Sigh..i can only day dream.Crap. plus my memory getting worse..sigh.
Health?hmm... need more check up i suppose but its the festive seasons. I can't get any appointment. Lazy also..eh. I think is more of doc phobia.Hhehe..will see the doc. soon.
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